this is me, hiding out in this blog and avoiding responsibilities for the next ten minutes.
so many things to talk about, let's make a list (as i love doing)
i hate writing poems.
when i joined creative writing, poetry was completely out of my spectrum. to me, poetry either rhymes, is a limerick, or sounds pretentious. the last part, mostly, nowadays at least. i can't for the life of me write something without the need to rhyme it. also years of shakespeare in my teens have left me with a hankering to constantly write limericks because it goes with my "neh neh neh neh neh tbbbbbbth" personality. so when we had to do an in-class poetry activity, i naturally had to divert all of my sarcasm juices into it, else i wouldn't be able to write a single word. like that spongebob mocking meme, i wrote a really long piece of garbage that people found funny. my table mates had some really pleasant things, so naturally my shit stuck out. i don't know, being deep has lost all meaning to me (thanks, millenials!) and writing poetry to me feels like i'm being pretentious (thanks tumblr poets!) at least i'm glad my teacher sorta shares my views on that. makes the mod easier.
also when one girl said she was overloading on AUs i thought she was taking like 22 or something but she was taking 19. i've taken 18-19 since entering uni (that's an ADM average so) so even with taking 19 my other adm tablemate and i slept at 6 and still attended the 9:30am class. NO EXCUSES!
film is hard. like, really hard.
i have no passion to write (ref. to point 01) so scriptwriting sucks [the life out of me]. but for the gpa i will sacrifice. maybe it's because i'm largely visual. or maybe it's because i'm restless and my constant pacing stops me from sitting at a desk to type an 8 page script. or maybe it's because i ramble and can't keep my thoughts together. i mean i've got pages of ideas but jesus, how hard is it to stay still and write, right?
also being a producer SUCKS. especially when we keep getting rejected for film locations. i am panicking like fuck man, the shoot was supposed to be on monday but our location decided that after agreeing to let us film, that they f o r g o t that "we have stock-checking and basically fuck you". now we have got no location :-) at least our prof let us skip lesson on monday to film. but this wouldn't have happened if the store had just kept their word. knn.
i have no time for anything
i have backlogged about 6 weeks of forensic science lectures. i haven't exercised in vvvvv long. i have an online mod due sunday that i have to complete by tonight. our shoots are 4 days in a row. haven't done my call sheets. have eaten mee goreng multiple days in a row. my skin is terrible now and i feel like puking because my period hasn't come yet and it might come during shoot.
where is the recess in recess week
(is this poetry? HAHAHAHA)
- your pal