i fucking forgot about my blog (what's new)

 This first part is being written at 12:29 AM on a work day. 

I need to learn to stop yapping my GOD my mouth truly has a life of its own. I should really put that energy into writing and maybe, just MAYBE, I can make posting here something regular. 

Earlier this year, I told myself I'd post twice a week, once in English here and once in Korean on my now-defunct Naver blog. 

:-D

I'm not going to try to make a promise to myself again that I know I might break but hopefully my next post on here is at least just a week from now and not...8 months yeesh??????

Keep bolding on (bold like the font)

My bosses told me that, as a copywriter, I should do things all the time: keep reading, and keep writing. And apparently, reading subtitles and writing angry tweets (sorry, Xs) don't count so I'm going to try to restart this blog. Mainly because I'm trying to retain my sanity while I spend 6 months in a foreign country speaking my third language. Also, the whole 'goldfish memory' thing. Better to record it down before it's all gone forever.

I wish I could turn back time to JC1 when things were great. Change is hard. So, so hard. I hate it.

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Today, my MD told me I'm too young to be this cynical.

 Is it not normal to want to be knocked down by a bus every morning from Monday to Friday?

AGAIN

 Merry Christmas & a happy new year. I've drafted all my posts since 2017. 

Why? Not enough cynicism. Also now that I'm a "copywriter" (hmm) I should probably write with a bit more..."professionalism".

I'm hanging on by a thread at this point—I just fell to my knees at a Walmart the Tampines Giant parking lot. 2022 has driven me to the damn edge and I'm this close to turning religious just so I can catch a break. This year truly was the embodiment of be careful what you wish for because god damn did I make a bad wish. But while I learn to articulate my thoughts (and breakdowns) better, I've decided to go ahead and wipe this bitch out just so I can start on a clean slate. Again.

All best.